Hardware update

..or how my pc grows up 5 years too late.

In the long meantime since I've been working on you, blog, my main hard drive has died by the way.
I've lost a lot of things that meant a lot to me like the logs from all of my time in Furcadia and SL (since it had logging). Saved memories have a big meaning to me especially due to my condition with my impaired memory and I guess the fact that I had been losing so much of myself from the past.

Anyhow I always loved to be able to go back and read how me and a good friend met the first time or even just to be able to go back and look up something I had been told before or just something that made me smile. I also never liked to lose roleplays after working on the posts. Before SL had a log option I hated to lose RPs and copy pasting into notepad didn't always work when crashing for example.

Now I lost several years worth of conversations and roleplay. I didn't have a backup of them. Constantly updating files to be burned on a permanent disc again and again somehow never appealed and I didn't expect my main drive to just die from one day to another. Go bad maybe, lose data, start scratching itself like an old one I had yeah, but not just waking up one day and it doesn't even spin anymore.
I've also lost the work files for my edited pictures, video clips I recorded and of course a lot of other stuff but anything downloaded or installed doesn't matter much compared to the loss of memories.

Anyways I am rambling. I meant to get to the good point about my hardware as well.
It will be my birthday soon (Dec 20th) and eventually after having this PC for years already I will have 2GB of RAM and I am curious about how that will feel, multitasking finally working better, loading times being shorter, program stuttering going away, some games becoming playable for me just like when I got from 256MB to 512MB.
It'll be great I am sure.
When I put my current PC together, which was the first one that wasn't second hand from family members, it cost us a lot of money for our situation then (and now we have even a lot less money) and after getting the ASUS A7N8X mainboard with a AMD 3200 XP, the case, etc I had run out of money and could only afford a 256Mb RAM for the rest of the money. A junk brand at that unfortunately.
The thing is this motherboard is (was by now) powerful and needy and it crashes such cheap RAM if running at full speed because the chips are not of a good enough quality to be reliable. So all this time I am running the CPU on like a 2500MHz instead of a 3200Mhz because I have to keep the frequency lower for the RAM.
Also 256MB aren't really much as you surely know. Windows alone used almost all of that and I was purely running on my hard drive as virtual memory. My time in SL consisted of logging in with a clear cache, be a little smooth while things weren't rezzed yet then I would freeze up almost completely, relogging with cleared cache every 5-10minutes to start over.
Yeah I don't know either how I managed to survive 3 years on the PC like that in total with every program running that well.

Then the additional 256MB came from wonderful friends who had old hardware they wouldn't need anymore and sent them to me over half the globe. They upgraded my life really by doing that since the PC is my gateway to living and I am still very very grateful for it. Thank you <3
512Mb felt amazing compared to before. I could actually move freely in SL for example! Like walking and looking around and staying online for hours. Beautiful.

So now I will be making a jump from 512MB to 2GB when I get the ram as combined gift for birthday and Christmas and I am really looking forward to the performance boost. Finally my PC would get the full potential ..when it actually already become outdated.

Well enough rambling about this for now.

(Please pardon possible typos and bad phrasing. I just scribbled this together, overtired, not working it over much really yet)

Hello blog, long not see

Well just as I predicted I couldn't keep up with updating this.
Naturally in my condition as always. I can start things again and again, gather a little bit of initial enthusiasm to get energy out of nowhere for doing so and then after the first break I never get to finish it as I would need to force my sick little body and brain from then on which only possibly results in suffer like overloads or frustration of the inabilities. It sucks, yeah.

Well maybe I'll still use this space for general babble when I feel like typing about something although I am usually chewing off a friend's ear with that in conversations instead.

On a sidenote: I still love the header graphic though. At least something nice here.

Pixel Perfect

What you see here is my own attempt of a tutorial that teaches how to achieve the effect of water on a surface ...even including the broken reflections!

This tutorial video and more I've found at "Pixel Perfect with Bert Monroy". If you'd like to go straight to the water drops you can click here.
He shows techniques in both Photoshop and Illustrator.

I find the format of the show really appealing and the host has a friendly teacher charm about him.
Watching these tutorials encourages you to play with what you've learned, rather than feeling like a one-way-only type of edit with only a specific use and it is quite inspiring I think. You should check them out.

I hope you'll enjoy and find something that is helpful to you.

Trying Blogger video

Well lets give the Blogger player a test run then.
Erm... please don't mind the quality and content. *cough*
This project was planned to be worked out more, having a friend of mine in the other place and such but as usual what I want to do and what I can manage to get done are different matters in my condition. So this is the little test I got done with my first ever steps in video editing.
Can you tell I am a silly girl sometimes.

Warning: Might be too loud. Please adjust your volume first.

No really, it is frikkin LOUD! Sorry I can't fix it now either thanks to losing the file when my harddrive died some time ago.



I wish I could afford buying the full version of GameCam. It runs really great for me with its automatic performance adjustment causing no lag in either the program or the video. The test version comes without sound recording and of course that banner in the corner.

Edit: Okay so the visual quality is less than great on Blogger video, at least in the conversion from the codec of my file. No way to read that little sign in the beginning for example.
For the curious: It says "Beware of teh silly tgirl Rawr! Mew!"

Eep! (...positive eep that is)

o.o *just looked at the uploaders for media here the first time*

Just wow this is so nice. Not only can I host everything I need instead of having to bother with bandwidth of some image hoster but
...8MB per pic and 100MB per video...

This is so very neat!
*hugs her new Blogger*

Sorry if this looks like advertising but I am seriously amazed about the generosity of a free blog service like this. 3MB more than I can put on my non-pro Flickr and 100MB is like Youtube but it's all right here in the blog tools. I really really like that. I'll look forward to posting content with media.


Oh and on a sidenote, I think I'll settle with this url now:
tehsillycat.blogspot.com

Yes teh, no typo. That shall be as homage to lolcats and "Silly cat" was a remark on me from someone.

Long live teh silly cat!

...I might vary the title when the mood strikes though.

Edit: Ah while uploading a picture for the later post I spotted the 1GB maximum storage notice. So still better watch the sizes.

Dear diary...

No, not even such I had in the past so writing down my thoughts is pretty new in this format. I mean the talking "to self/piece of paper" way of writing instead of communicative interaction. I am not sure how long it'll take until I catch on.

Ugh I am glad I didn't make this thing "official" yet hehe. Lets hope I'll get some interesting ideas or anyone would enjoy to read the mind junk I'll probably produce. At least I had positive feedback for the layout so far.

Being a perfectionist can be so counterproductive too. I can't just go and throw out thoughts without working them out enough and considering what I want to achieve by doing it. I also have trouble expressing myself clearly on first attempt, just sorting my thoughts or simply phrasing things well due to my mental and cognitive issues so there is another reason why writing out of the box isn't really my thing. (Some friends will know how that goes with me babbling on and on about a topic until I come to a well put conclusion because I am gathering my thoughts still on the way.)
When I did commentary on others for example I took hours to write sometimes. Yes ..hours. I work things over again and again when given time until I think I express myself well enough and the readability is flowing well. So you see 'just' typing will be pretty tough.

I don't think reading other blogs more would help anything because I have to project my own mind into this thing after all. There is hardly anything to look up at other people's work.

I think I'll might make "mind junk" one of the labels for anything I 'try' to just throw out there...

Title and url may vary

At least for now I am not setting them in stone yet so until I am all set the blog might not load when I found my "ideal" set and changed the url.
In the case you are someone who came across the blog already and want to keep looking out for it (which is unlikely) I will be putting the final url into a profile or two of mine where it can be found back again then.

I am still tinkering with everything before I start on more content. I've just made me a header and I am pleased with it. The text is not perfect on such an active background but it's fairly readable still right now. I'll keep tweaking the template and setup until I am satisfied and can move on with whatever I'll start my actual posting.

Thanks for reading

"To blog or not to blog.."

"That is the question"

Greetings fellow internet user who came across my blog. Please enjoy your stay if you will.

So, yes I am actually not even sure yet if I really want to blog publicly. I can't really make up my mind about it so the best way to find out will be to just try.

I haven't really blogged much at all yet with few exceptions and I am not sure how much content I could put out that I'd intend for a wider audience. I am just rather someone for personal talks. See I am more of a one-to-one girl babbling tons with a friend but usually keep my mouth shut in public.

But then there are ideas of how I could be posting advices and tutorials to help people which would be attractive to do for example.
...I am just not very settled about what a blog of mine would be made of so I will just go give it a try and if I see it is good I'll just keep doing it. If I manage to give someone an interesting read to spend time on, to be helpful or just to make someone smile then it would be worth it.

So this is how it begins.. the chaos that is my future blog

Uh oh...